Extravagance

I don't know how He does it.

*Your love is extravagant
Your friendship it is intimate

He is the Lover of my Soul. He is so in tune with my every fear and my every hope and He knows with every detail how they are intertwined. He exposes me to that which draws out the very unknown I only hoped existed. And it does exist because, praise God, the Holy Spirit lives.

Little girls long for adventure. Twirling and playing and dress up aren't evidence that she thinks that's all there is to life. It's evidence she thinks there's more. It's the hope of a brilliant future in a fantastic story that matters deeply to the soul. With beauty and wit and a heart that loves wholly and fearlessly she'll dance her way through a life so full her very core can't be bound.
Admitting that playtime is secret dreaming in role play is something so scary even she won't want to realize it in fear that it's just too good to be true.

I never could have imagined...I look back at my plans I knew I could have achieved. How safe it all was. How empty my life would have been. The plans of the Lord- He who forms the hearts of all, who considers everything they do- stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations (Psalm 33: 11 & 15) A chosen daughter of the King of kings will not live an ordinary life. It is not that I feel at all like I've achieved anywhere near this out-of-the-ordinary life. It's that I can't tell you one thing about my future and it gives me chills. I can't figure it out. I LOVE how unsatisfied I am with what the world wants me to do. I know He won't let me settle for what so much of my surrounding thinks I need. I need to live and breathe and eat and drink and sleep Jesus Christ. God I don't know how to get where it is you want me to go but

I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in the secret place

Clear Lake is heavy on my heart tonight. There are nights when the swelling in my chest is so great I barely know how to stand it. How in the world did I get so lucky? I wish to write about these great people but words seem so insignificant to their impact on my life. Because of my God destined time spent with them, I am forever changed.

Your love is extravagant

Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
You consider me a friend

So much of me understands my unworthiness. This is why admitting the dreams means admitting the fears. Unimpactful? Meaningless? Lifeless?

Capture my heart again

But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.
We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield.
In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you. (Psalm 33: 18-22)

Extravagant as defined on Dictionary.com :)
3. exceeding the bounds of reason, as actions, demands, opinions or passions.
4. going beyond what is deserved or justifiable.

Your love truly is extravagant.

I wish. I want. I always have. Change my heart O God to desire the things you desire. Guide me. Take me to where you want me to be, lead me to those places. Because I could never be so happy, I've never been as happy, as when I am surrounded by the purpose and will of the King. To make you happy, to make you proud, to Love and to be in your Love, that is a dream come true.

*Casting Crowns - Your Love is Extravagant